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Sunday, August 07, 2005

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 13:47:21 GMT

ok, this is my last entry here, and then im shutting this site down.

For all those of you who want to keep up with whats going on (cuz my life's just that interesting) my new xanga is:

www.xanga.com/BraveLilSoldier

hugz and kisz,
~u know me~

Friday, June 17, 2005

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 10:46:52 GMT

well, we all know what yesterday was, so i dont think i have to say it. I'm really gonna miss you guyz...it still hasnt really hit me yet. No more Crestwood...well, all y'all have a kick azz summer.
- party lotz
- get tipsy
- keep in touch

well, i dedicate my favorite song to yall:

I HOPE YOU DANCE: LEE ANN WOMACK

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)
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Hugz, kisz, and some salty tearz,
~u know me~
(dont forget me)

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 11:16:41 GMT

Ugh. another day. only 4 more school days left. this makes me happy and sad. all of us have to partaaayy!!! this summer cuz highschool is gonna be a whole nother world, and i bet half of us wont be in the same class or bother to keep in touch.

i think i'm in trouble. long story short, (i wont say names) me and someone and someone else got in some mess (i still dont really know what happened) but i guess he told his mom or somehow his mom found out and so his mom called my mom and now we're all in deep doodoo, and my mom wont let me go outside this weekend. and this is the LAST weekend b4 marcella moves, but does she care? no. AAaagghhh!!! idiots.

Everybody is so full of $%&# these days!!!

okay, well im hungry and mad so i guess ill stop typing.

suffocating hugz and sloppy wet kisz,
~u know me~

PS. i LOVE this song. It makes me wanna jam!!

"Grind with me
Relax your mind and take your time with me
i love you deeper if you cry for me..."

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 23:38:09 GMT

Hey all-

Mad 'cause i had to come in early today. mom freaked out about the so-called thunderstorm and so i was only outside for about an hour. u guyz are probably sayin so wat? go out tomrrow. well i love goin outside, cuz its an escape from everything. my house, my family, my friends. it's just me and the guys and marcella hangin out and none of them bring up anything about school cuz they dont know me at school, and none of them bring up anything about home cuz none of them live with me. its just a bunch of guys that just know the fun side of me, and i know the fun side of them and i have the time of my life! but all that is soon to end and that makes me sad...

Tomorrow's the big trip. i dont even know who's in my group. i hope i'm with nicole cuz it seems like we havent really talked lately...

Only seven more days of shcool including tomorrow. *tear* all year i was ready for it to be over, and now i'm kinda wihsin for one more month...im gonna miss all my friends!!!

why am i always getting into arguments/fights with everybody. people just piss me off a lot and i just wanna strangle certain ppl (no names...). AAAgghhh!!! i need a vacation. i'm screwed up. maybe im crazy. not crazy like lets put the cat in the microwave crazy, but crazy like i'm not rational or i dont think things all the way through, or i cant really control myself. sometimes i have thoughts to do stupid stuff that i know is stupid and i know i'm gonna regret it later, but i do it anyways. where do i get these thoughts. why do i go through with it? AAGGHHH!!! God help me!

My favorite Spanish phrase: ¿Qué tú quieres?
Translation: *ghetto voice* What you want?

[Dont ask...]

Hugz and Kisz everyone,
~u know me~

Sunday, May 29, 2005

Sun, 29 May 2005 20:59:39 GMT

so today im really down. i just got a call about a guy that likes me (thats not why im down.)he told me yesterday that he liked me but i didnt think he was serious...whatever...and everybody's crying because Roberts going to military school! i've known about this since around Christmas time! where has everybody been or why hasnt he told everybody else? am i that special? i dont think so...

newho, im just here bummed cuz i was gonna go outside today *shock* but my hair's in curlers so there goes that. and marcella was at my door and i answered the door in curlers and derrick or whatever his name is is with her and here i am at the door with curlers, but whatever. i dont care. i'll probly go outside tomorrow with them and get this whole thing straight with this guy who likes me. until then i shall conclude this entry, go post the same thing in my kiwibox, and then go...i dunno do something constructive like read a book maybe. whatever. so....goodbye everyone.

hugz and kisz
~u know me~

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Thu, 12 May 2005 23:27:08 GMT

Hmm...

another entry in my online journal commonly called an xanga. and of what shall i write???

i know, 26 MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL. if my math isnt off, which it probly is. hehe.

OMG! Evan, Tiffany, and i skipped SOL Prep today. I told Evan, "I don't feel like bein in this class, come on." and he said "where are we going" and i told him to come on. so i tell mrs. merriman that we're going to mrs. labyak and she says ok. so we leave the classroom and tiffany is in the hallway and she asks us where we're going and we say no where in particular and she says she wants to come. so here are the 3 of us walkin up and down the halls of crestwood for 45 MINUTES!!!! We don't come back to the class until the bell rings, but then we figure we might need a pass, so we have to acutally go and find mrs. labyak to get a pass. and the whole time we were dodging teachers and such in the hallway. we passed mr. joseph up and down the same hallway 3 times and he didnt even say anything to us. what a dummy! we went down the 6th grade hall bout 7 times, and the 7th grade halls bout five, and Mrs. Whitaker was sitting at the end of thehall in her little post position. and teachers kept asking us where we were going and we kept having ot make up stuff. and then Mrs. grier was coming down the hall and we knew we couldnt fool her so (we were by the soda machines) we just kept goin in circles round that wall so she couldnt see us till we lost her.

Skipping a class! It was exhilerating. i have to do that again sometime. Well, thats basically all that happened today.

Another day, another sunset, another sunrise tomorrow.

Much luv,
~u know me~

PS. None of yall that are reading this better tell anybody. If you do, i will hunt you down like a dog. Thats all. no hard feelings...

Saturday, May 07, 2005

Sat, 07 May 2005 18:13:31 GMT

Wow, i havent written in here in forever. i almost forgot i had this. i havent really had much to say. I am officially obsessed with The Phantom of the Opera. i've read the book, bought the soundtrack, and bought the movie. now alls i need is to see it on Broadway...And i bought A Beautiful Mind which is a REALLY good movie if u havent seen it, go see it!!!

Well, not doin anything today. Just chillin at home. its hot in herr...hmmm, not much to say. OMG i cant believe we had tests in all 4 subjects yesterday!!! i cant wait till summer. i think we only have like 30 more days. i counted. haha. well, there really is nothing to say.

And all of yall that dont have SOL Prep are missing out. On Fridays we have free days and yesterday was funny at the end of the day. anywho, i'm hungry and i feel a headache coming on and this loud music im playing isnt helping any so i'm gonna go now.

Much luv,
~u know me~

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 21:42:32 GMT

'ello chums-

Wow, i did absolutely nothing today. Amazing. i just sat on the couch all day and watched the Girlfriends marathon. yesterday me, stacey, and nicole went to this thing at the library. we were 'stalkin' this guy. his name was Jeremy and he was 15 and Stacey thought he was cute so we just kept mesin wit him. it was funny. newayz, not much goin on here. talkin to nicole on the phone...ready for the summer to come. im gonna party my life away this summer! lol. well, i suppose life is good. listnin to musica. i miss my buddy. hes gone now...maybe ill see him in like thirty years inside a Food Lion or something. who knows? until then, i hope u lead a good life...

Much luv,
~u know me~

Monday, April 11, 2005

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 22:07:02 GMT

Hey all-

Today was overall an okay day. i pulled my B in english back up to an A. Thought on:

Animals Testing: i dunno. its good cuz it saves ppl, but its killing innocent animals. im on the fence on whether i'm for it or not

Abortion: AGAINST!! it is soo wrong to kill someone before they're even bored.

Pollution: hello ppl?!?! carpool and walk if the place you're goin is close by. and try not to use aerosols (Raid, hairspray etc...)

anwyays, i was lookin at my ficpress account (click on the thing on the left that says my website if u wanna go there) and i have 57 thingies written. newayz i was browsin through my works and i found this one i wrote a while ago and i like it so i'm gonna put it up here:

Tears of the Sky

For all the pain and hurt

I’ve kept inside

For all the tears

I’ve tried to hide

For all the sorrow,

All the regrets

For all the things

I’ve tried to forget

For the things about me

They’ll never know

For all the emotions

I never let show

For all the lies

I thought were true

Let the tears of the sky wash away my soul

So I may start anew

good or not? well, i dont care what you think. i like it and that's all that counts. ha. im not in such a good mood right now, so im gonna stop typing before i say something i regret.

Much luv,
~u know me~

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 22:58:51 GMT

Hey y'all

well, this weekend was interestin. yesterday i went to the library with nikki and i got like a ton of books and Alfred Hitchcock videos. we watched one and it was terrible!!! but we did the report none the less. i dont even know y we did it. we both have A's. Neways, Nicole has to "heal someone" tomorrow, so get to school early and u might be able to see it. if not i'll tell u about it lata. lol. well anways, she came ova today, and b4 that i was readin and watchin this lifetime movie. I checked out this book called "Angus, Thongs, and Full Frontal Snogging" it is quite hilarious and i didnt even read that much of it. anyways...not much to say...i'll see all u guyz tomorrow at school...

Much luv,
~u know me~